wow i feel alot better
11 days now
im still gettin it outta my system

ugh


i feel on top of the world though

well im not with chad anymore probably the best thing for me



i feel better already
ive neva felt so HAPPY

Confused

get me outta here

watched im a celebrity get me outta here tonight, new one's on tomorrow

i love heidi, lol, shes actually doing better than i thought she would, spencer brings her down though. whats gonna happen when he gets voted off, she'd probably leave with him, haha, well hopefully not, all the other celebrities dont even compare to heidi and spencer though, ive only heard of like... uh.... Torrie wilson? and what is she a Wwf wrestler? cool'?

well anyways i cant wait for new season of the hills, and the full show of Speidi's Wedding on Mtv, cannot wait...:) tuesday june 9

neways its getting late imma gunna chill with my baby boy

oo yeah i cant believe LAUREN SHOWED UP TO THE WEDDING, there's a pic of her leaving out the back door, i actually <3 lauren way more than heidi, i have loved watching her since LagunaBeach :):)

Yay For Internet!!!!!

yup

finally got the internet back... yup that's right

hehe

its WiFi too

well its like this portable Bell WiMax unplugged shit but we hooked it up to a wirelesss router and BAM! no cords nothing

anyways.

im back to blogging.

lots has been going on lately ..

here's a recent pic of me..i made it OLD looking on photo bucket

because i dont have adobe photoshop :(

neways

summer time

time to party

Thoughts.

sometimes i write some feelings on here when i am mad, so things get blown out of proportion, i kind of feel embarassed of that post so i delete it, i am going to make sure that no one can read these posts, i want it to be a personal diary but when i first started posting, i accidently connected it with my facebook, so im going to look at my account setting so i know no one is reading this.
:)

ugh.

redemption = hopefully chad gettin off that HORRIBLE shit :(
he told me he was gunna quit april 1st
now i guess he wants to go to rehab
fingers crossed hopefully its done and over with
i love him so much and i only want whats best for him